"I forgive myself for enjoying life"

Do you feel angry with yourself every now and then? I do. More often than I would like. So, like always when I'm aware of a pattern that's holding me from being happy, I'm looking for a way to change this. Let's tell you about my latest discovery and share with you what has helped me to feel good about myself.

Today I was walking outside with my new born Jeara (10-02-2015). The sun was shining and Jeara was sleeping in a purple wrap close to my heart. I was on my way to the shopping street, looking for new baby whipes and since I was on maternity leave, I had all the time in the world to find them. Reading this, you would say all the ingredients were there to have a perfect day. And yet, I felt sad and angry.

Like a lot of times when I'm experiencing negative feelings, my Ego was talking to me angrily:

"Laurene, you should really be working right now. I mean, you have all the time, why aren't you helping people?! You know God wants you to spend every minute devoting to your life's purpose and that means work, work, work. How can you feel good walking here by the way, while Marieke is working 5 days a week and earning all the money? You didn't make a profit in the last months and you were only being a lazy pregnant women, weren't you? You're a bad partner and a worthless being."

Even though I know a lot about affirmations, angels and spiritual laws, I agreed with my Ego. For a few minutes, at least. In these minutes I asked my angels to help me. I had no particular prayer, I just asked: '

"PLEASE DEAR ANGELS, CAN YOU HELP ME FEEL BETTER?"

At first I noticed two passers-by walking with a suitcase. One of the suitcases was red and the other pink. "Oh wow, they must head to a wonderful place full of adventure!" This was a little sparkle litting the fire of my imagination and soon I was dreaming about a world trip, having a second house in a sunny country and speaking at events to inspire and help people as a spiritual teacher.

It was only a minute later that I arrived at the shopping street and had to wait for a car to pass. Unconsciously I registrated a lot of things of the car: it was a small car and probably a girl's, because it was pink all-over. And I mean the cotton candy kind-of-color. Hey, wait a minute! Pink again. Archangel Jophiels color. My vision of a second house in a sunny country was immediately replaced with this car in front of me. I smiled. Of course, Jophiel, the Archangel that helps us to think beautiful thoughts and appreciate the beauty around us. Since I was clearly angry at myself, she was there to help me change my thoughts and to remind me to be kind to myself. To allow myself to be. 

WHAT WAS THE LAST TIME I FORGAVE MYSELF?

I couldn't remember. So I started to examine my thoughts and feelings. I was feeling angry because...

... I wasn't making any money, only spending it.

... I had the time to do what I want and Marieke didn't have that opportunity since she works 40 hours a week on a contract-base

... there was another really frightening feeling hidden in a small corner: happiness. 

AND I WAS NOT ALLOWED TO FEEL HAPPY AS LONG AS ALL THE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND ME DIDN' T EXPERIENCE THE SAME HAPPINESS AS WELL. 

Bang! The realization hit me and I felt like a boxer who just got punched by his opponent. I was laying on the floor of negativity and I didn't see it coming. Fortunately I was blessed with a good fighters' mentality, so I pulled myself back together and was determined to get up again. 

I HAD TO GET TO A PLACE OF LOVE. I HAD TO CHANGE MY THOUGHTS IN ORDER TO SHIFT MY EMOTIONS AND THE WHOLE SITUATION I WAS IN. 

"I forgive myself for taking the time to relax"
"I forgive myself that I have all the time to do what I want"
"I forgive myself for enjoying life"

Within seconds, I felt so much better. Weight was lifted. My energy changed. I suddenly looked at my beautiful daughter, feeling my heart almost explode of love while whishing for Marieke to experience the same feelings. And I realised that relaxation was key to allow new things to come into my life. Like new ideas to help others. Or an idea for a new article ;)

Over to you:

Do you recognize any of the above? Strange and at the same time interesting, isn't it, how our Ego's can make us feel bad while we have so much to be grateful for? A lot of times we feel bad for experiencing more joy, abundance or wealth than the people around us. While the angels are always showing me there is enough for everyone and the energy of joy even helps us to attract what we want. So we have more to share with others.

Do you feel angry at yourself for some reason? And is your Ego attacking you all the time with many 'need-to's', 'should-do's' or 'had-to's'? When you're looking for a change, take a moment to examine - and maybe even write down - your thoughts and forgive yourself. You can even share it with others if you like, so you can help each other along the way. You can also declare it in the comments below. I'd love to read it!

If you'd like to get some support with forgivess and healing, you can contact me. I'd love to see you happy!

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About baby's, bliss & business

Dear beautiful soul,

In this article:

• The art of baby-less writing
• Bliss & Business in 2014 & 2015 : the first Certified Angel Card Readers & a new course in May.
• Free meditation video from Doreen Virtue

The art of baby-less writing

It has been a while since my last article. Some of you know, others don’t: I’m 8,5 months pregnant at the moment. So far it has been one of the biggest and most beautiful transformations in my life. Of course with a lot of unexpected experiences, like my mind telling me whole day to do this for the baby. And that. And more.

So even though every day I still wanted to help others with writing, ideas for new articles kept running through my head and I sat down after my computer… the next article is still not finished. Honestly it’s a lot harder to write and stay concentrated. So unfortunately you will have to wait a few months for the next article. Unless you want me to write one about breast feeding, diapers and wrapping a baby ;).

Bliss & Business 2014 & 2015 - The first Certified Angel Card Readers & a new course in May.

For me, 2014 has been an amazing, blissful year and a spectacular ride. It was full of challenges and reinventions and you were part of that. I’m so grateful to have had the opportunity to be part of your life last year. Thank you!

2014 - Transformations
What I will remember most, is the great transformations I’ve seen so many of you making. A lack of understanding was replaced with compassion, (self-)forgiveness and love, anxiety was replaced with courage and restlessness with peace. I’m so proud of you that you took steps, changed perspective and dared to change.

2014 - First Certified Angel Messengers (CAM)
Also, 4 beautiful souls decided to take it a step further and join the Certified Angel Messenger course. With great enthusiasm and eagerness to learn they came to Haarlem every Thursday, sharing experiences on their readings and challenges, asking a thousand questions about angels and absorbing knowledge like sponges. I’m so proud on all the progress they made!

2015 - Maternity leave
As I’m writing you, I’m already in my maternity leave. I will hopefully be welcoming and guiding a beautiful soul soon. I will start giving readings and healings again by the end of April.

2015 – New Certified Angel Messenger Course in May!
After such a successful course (average recommendation: 8,3) I’m even more enthusiastic of starting a new course in May (click here for Dutch).

Would you like to gain more trust in yourself, learn to let go of anxiety and other dysfunctional patterns and get a better understanding of the angels surrounding you? If you feel guided: don’t hesitate. Take that leap of faith and subscribe now. See you May 8th!

Free meditation Doreen Virtue

The energies have been intense last weeks and Doreen felt guided to share a clearing and shielding meditation with Archangel Michael. It helped me to let go of anxiety and rise above negative energies, so I think it’s worth sharing. Hopefully you will benefit from it as well. Enjoy!

I wish you all the best for now and I’ll be back in April.

Lots of love,

Laurene 

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Change your mood with soul food

Imagine there would be a radio station for your soul. Dedicated to support you in living a happy life, providing you with free tips on how to overcome the daily life obstacles. All brought from a positive, you-can-heal-and-change-your-life perspective.*

Does this sound too good to be true? Well, let's bring in the good news: there is one radio station that actually does all this stuff! A 'Yes' station. At least, that's how I experience it. The name is Hayhouse® radio - Radio for your soul. It's free and you can listen to it where and whenever you want. I think it's such a refreshing, brilliant idea and a bright shining star compared to the stations who send out fear-based messages. So I'm happily sharing it with you.

How would a radio station be able to help me?

It motivates me like a digital and at-distance coach to continue living my dream. Sometimes as a young entrepeneur working from home 7 days a week, it can be hard to keep on motivating myself. There are moments that I find myself sitting at my soft, easy-to-keep-sitting-there couch, feeling I want to help people and at the same time not moving a single muscle to make anything happen. The longer I sit there, the louder the voice of my Ego:

'Laurene, you are really lazy. Do you think all these succesful entrepeneurs are sitting on their couch all day?'

It's at these moments that I take the last single drop of inspiration to consciously tell my hand to reach out to my phone, click on the Hayhouse® radio app and listen.

Soon, my mood changes. Listening to all the people calling in with questions makes me happy. Let me explain why, before you assume it is because my Ego is having it's own party: 'yes, they feel even more bad than me, now I feel gooood!' The reason I feel happy again, is because it re-awakens my passion to help people when I am confronted with so many callers still looking for happiness in their lives.

How would this be helpful for you?*

• It can give you new insights that help you deal with your current challenges. Every show provides free tips/learnings, like stress-relief, self-healing alternatives to physical problems and other ways to balance your energy. 
• It can help you stay motivated to live your dream. Because of the positive and supporting messages on the radio station, it can help your shift your thoughts and uplift your energy.  
• It can help you stay motivated as a health care professional. Almost every show offers listeners the opportunity to call in and ask a question. It can help you remember why you started your business.

Who's there to support you?

Hayhouse® radio offers a great variety of speakers and programs. For example:

• Jessica Ortner - Addresses tapping, also known as meridian tapping or EFT, for a variety of concerns including weight loss, anxiety, depression and more
• Dr. Mona Lisa Schultz  - Intuitive health - teaches the body-mind and medical intuitive solutions to several physical problems 
• Doreen Virtue™ - How the angels and Archangels can help you have a healthier and happier life
• Radleigh Valentine - Explains about the meaning and symbolism of the Angel Tarot cards and how you can use them
• Esther & Jerry Hicks - Channeling the non-physical consciousness Abraham 

Sometimes old shows are rebroadcasted and you might come across a Louise Hay show for example. For a complete list of the hosts that have a weekly program, click here.

So whether you're looking for stress relief, want more alternative options for physical problems or you would like to learn more about angels and tarot, download the Iphone or Adroid app or go to www.hayhouseradio.com . I hope it will motivate, inspire and support you as much as it did/does for me. Have a nice weekend!

Did one of the programs of Hayhouse® radio already support you? Or do you know any other radio station that supports you in living your dream or teaches you valuable life lessons? Leave a message below, I'll always answer. Thanks for sharing!

* note: this whole article is my personal opinion and experience with Hayhouse® radio only, written to support you. Please keep in mind that there's no quote from Hayhouse®  in it and no rights can be derived from this article.

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How 10 strangers, a bunch of cards and a library made my day

Let´s take 10 strangers, a bunch of cards and a library. Can you see the similarities? Let me help you out: They were all part of my 'I live my dream' mission today, which started at my most magical place: my heart.

Please, let me share my story with you. Don't have time to read everything? Just scroll down for the conclusions. Lots of love!

It could have been a pretty normal trip to the library... I walked to the front door with a bag of borrowed books. My left foot almost touched the doormat as Archangel Raphael - the angel of healing - caught my attention: ´Laurene, let's take a few of the 'You are allowed to be' cards with you, write down some loving words and put it in some books in the library as a surprise for the readers.' My brain immediately responded: 'That's the same idea the angels told me about one year ago.'

The memory popped up... Once I arrived in the library last year, I had taken the cards out, put them back after a second and told the angels: 'Listen, I'm very sorry, but I can't do this. I'm too scared. What will others think about me? And what if the library employees will find out?' So I had gone home continuously convincing myself with a 'what-an-original-idea-but-not-me' thought, and trying to forget about it as soon as possible.

And now, one year later, I was standing there. With the same idea. My first reaction was alike: scary! However, I had gained some wisdom in the last year, so another thought followed:

Being scared = ego trying to control = don´t listen, take action! 

Determined to live my dream, help others and share this message of love that was on the cards, I walked back into the living room to the white book shelves and grabbed a handful of cards. The first step was a fact.

A little later. With no more than me, myself and I and a couple of cards, I found myself sitting at a small table in the library. What to write on a card to a stranger? What message to share? I closed my eyes and concentrated on my heart chakra, at the same time asking Archangel Gabriel for inspiration. Once I felt my heart's energy, the words easily popped up:

'Dear reader,

The angels asked me to share this message. Today, I'm sharing it with you. You are allowed to be. 

Blessings and have a nice day, Laurene' 

Imagining the reader opening a book and being surprised by seeing a card, I started writing. Soon, my heart energy became stronger and the further I got, the bigger the smile on my face. Yes, it could be that the person opening the book wouldn't like angels. It could be that the person felt embarrassed being in the library and reading it, given the emotions these words usually trigger (have had people crying while reading, hugging me, smiling).

But hey, no-one would be able to ignore that it was all written from the heart, having had the intention of sharing love. 

'Ready, steady, go!' So with 10 cards in my hand and a 'I-just-want-to-see-if-this-is-an-interesting-book' face, I calmly picked a book from the shelves. My right thumb invisibly slipped over the cards, seperating the upper one from the rest. I peeked through my eyelashes, searching for employees or readers to catch me because of my deviant behaviour. Pfew. No-one to be seen. I took a deep breath: 1,2, 3...

...With supersonic fastness I opened the book, put a card in it and turned to the next page to make my action invisible for possible prying eyes. Supposedly nonchalant, I put the book back on the shelve. Supposedly... Inside me there was this 'I-did-it-even-though-it-was-frightening!' storm going on. My brain was reconstructing the last minutes over and over, convincing itself that it had really happened. And my heart was jumping up and down as if it had just won the Olympic Games.

With a big smile and 9 cards in my hand, I turned around and silently left the shelve behind me. The latest victory still on top of my mind, I felt confident. And I had to admit that I actually was having a lot of fun (!) sneaking through the library with my little love letters. So I happily put another 8 cards in different books. 9 down, 1 to go.

What to do with nr. 10? I was looking around, seeing some dedicated library employees which now appeared less scary to me. Maybe I could even make one of them happy... I looked at the shelve in front of me and smiled: I was standing before the category of Spirituality. And there was this perfect place for a card to be directly spotted by one of the employees. My hand reached out and put it right in front of my eye, side by side with some yogi wisdom. 10. Mission accomplished.

I walked away, rewinding the tape: Yes, I had experienced anxiety. Yes, I had been wondering what others would think about it. And yes, I had been feeling insecure and vulnerable.

But most important, I didn't let that stop me this time. Listening to the angels and acting upon their guidance, made me experience so many positive and valuable things.

Let me share with you what I learned from my library love adventure that has helped me getting over anxiety and accomplish my 'I live my dream mission' for this day. I turned it into tips for you to help you live your dream:

• Take back your power. Don't let fear keep you from living your dream. By accepting your fear, seeing the power you allowed it to have and consciously making the decision to take it back, you will experience courage, inner peace and harmony. This will make it a lot easier to take action.
• Allow yourself to be. Turn your focus from 'what will others think about me' to 'how can I help others to experience love'. It will open up your heart and love will flow into places that once were filled with anxiety.
• Ask your angels to guide you and listen. You needn't go through your current situation alone. Your guardian angels are always with you. Also, you can ask various Archangels for a specific situation. Then, let go and wait for the answer. It can come to you as a thought, feeling, words you're hearing or something you just know. The guidance of the angels can help you to align with your life's purpose, to feel supported and loved. Which makes it much more likely for you to accomplish your dream.

Enjoy!

With an extremely happy feeling and my heart still jumping, I left the library. What a wonderful experience. Would I ever get to know peoples' facial expressions, thoughts and feelings when reading the card? Probably not and that's perfectly fine. To me - and that's what I experienced on my mission today too - this is all that matters:

Love is the only truth. 

What challenging leap of faith did you take? What fears did you face and what have you done to get over it that has worked for you?  I'd be happy to read your tips and probably other people would too. Please leave your comment below.  

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Services

Angels

Course in Angel Messages

Learn how you can carefully answer your own and other people's questions about the meaning of life. We will work with the Angel Tarot Cards deck from Doreen Virtue. In every lesson, you will have another experience: you will- among other things - learn to trust your own channels of communication with the angels (clairaudience, -voyance, -sentience or cognizance) and learn several spreads. For example: choice-spread, love-spread and the Celtic Cross. Also we'll answer the question: how to start giving paid readings?

Interested? Find out more. 

Angel Card Readings

With an angel card reading you'll get a lovingly and clear answer from the angels to your questions. A reading will provide you with insights in your specific situation and can help you to take the next step on your journey through life. 

Also, it's possible to have a reading with a theme: Year reading (specified per month), Love reading, Birthday reading. 

Go to the website for more information or see what others say about a reading.

Healings
In a healing session our focus is on restoring the balance of body, mind and spirit. During your life you can face physical, mental, emotional, social or spiritual challenges. These challenges can result in energy blocks which cause an imbalance. For example:

Maybe you´re exhausted because you're a high sensitive person who tends to take over emotions from others. It happens to you every day and you simply don't know how to protect yourself. In a healing session I will provide you with tips and use Reiki, massage and/or nutrition to help you restore the energy balance.

Or maybe you are aware, but you don't want to set healthy boundaries because that makes you feel selfish. You feel you are helping people be happier by taking over their stuff. This is very nobel, but it makes you feel overwhelmed and tired in the end. In that case, we will focus on your (unconscious) believes and expectations -for example by using tapping or a healing journey-, work on your self-love and end up with some Reiki and massage to relax.

Do you recognize this? Discover the possibilities or read people's experiences.

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Charities

Charities I support
Every year I choose a charity to support for that year, donating a part of my income.

2014.
Wakibi offers people like you and me the opportunity to provide microcredits (small loans) to small entrepreneurs in developing countries. This facilitates access to affordable loans for these people with favorable payback terms. As a lender you have full control over the destination of your money. You can choose your own business or a project (eg. home equipment). When the loan is paid back, you can invest the money in another project.

What I especially like about this construction…
... it enables you to keep supporting different projects and people.
So the money invested doubles, triples, etc. its value.

… it’s really personal because you can decide
yourself whom you would like to support.

... it encourages the people in developing countries to be responsible
                                                    for their own situation and growth. They remain independent.

                                                    … 100% of the donation goes to the people.
                                                    Donating to the staff of Wakibi is an option.









Do you want to make a donation yourself? Here's the website (Dutch only).

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About me - vision

I believe...

... you're happy when you are your own self.
The more you connect with your true self, the better you get to know yourself. And the easier it becomes to listen to yourself and follow your unique path of happiness.

Sometimes things happen that bring you out of balance and you lose the connection with your own self. I strive to help you remember who you are and to help you live like that. To connect you to you source of energy.

... you are allowed to be. 
In my experience all human beings are essentially the same and connected to each other. We are all part of one big, all-embracing energy source. 

... both your body and mind deserve to get attention.
Your body and mind are your vehicle and when you're giving them the right nutrition and regularly take care of them, they will provide you with energy which you can use to learn and fulfill your life's purpose. It also works the other way around: if you're don't pay attention to your body and mind, it can block your energy and it will keep you away from the above.

Compare it with a car: if you fuel a diesel car with gas, it will soon be damaged. And when you forget to fill it up, you will run out of fuel and you will be stuck. When using the right fuel for your car and regularly taking care of it, it will support you to reach your destiny.

... that mankind functions as a whole.
If there is, for example, a disorder in the phyical area, it will effect on one or more different areas. I see health as a balance in the physical, mental, emotional, social and spiritual aspects of life. In my healings and readings, I therefore always look at you as a whole. I focus on the origin of the imbalance, the cause that's behind the symptoms. 

... you're in this life to learn. 
And that everything has two sides. The principles of Yin and Yang. There's no light without darkness. Everyone will face challenges in life. And then you have a choice: struggling with the challenge or accepting it, improving yourself and learn. I believe you can learn in every situation, also in a period of darkness and difficult situions, and that doing so will increase the light within you. In the end, you can reach a different state of mind because of this. 

... that awareness is the key to growth.
In my perception, the first thing is to be aware of who you are. As well the light as the darkness, and accepting what you find. Everything is allowed to be. You are allowed to feel what you feel. Next, you decide what you want to do with it. You choose how you approach yourself, the way you think about yourself. 

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